hahaha

so i made a tumblr. just cause i read taylor's blog saying to make one, so i was tempted. haha

tired

i'm sleepy. its 9 o'clock, but i woke up early today because of a mix-up with my ride to practice that i don't want to go to today. i really have nothing to say. haha. ok well bye

well this was a completely useless blog. actually pretty much all my blogs are useless. my blog should be called: totes ridic. a compilation of useless blogs. haha oh wells. i guess thats what happens when you have a boring life: you end up having nothing to talk about.

i plan to learn how to play guitar this summer, you know pick up from last summer, but when i tried to play again, i broke a string :( so that plan is going to be postponed.

i also want to go to the beach and build a huge sand castle! haha. i don't know why, but i really want to.

i also plan to finish my summer ap assignments before the day before school. cause last year on the last day of summer, i was at the beach trying to write and essay about a painting.

hopefully this summer i will get my license before school starts! that would be totes awes.

i'm so tired i can't even think about what else i want to do. actually, i know one more thing: have fun. hahahahaha

bored

i am bored. super bored. totes ridic bored. out of my mind bored. kick you in the crotch, poke you in the eye, and step on your foot bored. i don't even know what that means!

i don't even have anything to talk about. writing a blog is just the only thing i haven't done on the computer. i've spent hours playing computer games going on myspace, facebook, twitter, youtube, and all this other stuff that you can do on the computer. i was even googling for fun. did you know that a dog is only pregnant for 9 weeks? or something like that.

well at least i will get out tomorrow. i have to go to practice to do the assignment that we have to do for icon. i don't really see the point in it. but i did it anyways. i don't want to go to the practice. but i will anyways. i've realized that no matter how much crap i think icon puts us through, i still care about the team. no matter how much i don't want to admit it.

Sick

well i didn't know that you could post an empty blog. i accidentally did that like 2 seconds ago because i pressed enter. But anyways...i've been meaning to write a blog for a while, but its kinda hard to think right now cause i'm sick, but i'm going to watch transformers later today anyways.

The other day i helped my sister move into her new apartment in irvine because she has summer classes, well she pretty much has classes for the rest of her two years of school in irvine with like a week of summer vacation. And like i asked her why she was paying so much to take classes over summer and she said to "get ahead". my parents nodded their head indicating that they thought that was a good idea, but sometimes i wonder, get ahead to do what?.
get ahead so that you could get into the working environment and have practically no time to do anything but work? i guess you would finally earn enough money to support yourself, but at what cost? Even though i'm planning on being a surgeon, that doesn't sound to great. I feel like we do all this schooling just to live monotonous lives later on. Its not like being a surgeon will be anything like being a surgeon on Grey's Anatomy.

5 years later

earlier today, my mom gave me this box of my old stuff. i looked through it and at the very bottom was this notebook. I opened it and it turns out it was a diary that i wrote in for like 6 days. haha (i could never keep up with writing in a journal, i eventually forgot about it). so it was 2004, i was like 10. i was so weird.
But it seems like i'm not so different than i was 5 years ago. i still write a whole lot of nothing. hah! some things never change.

i wonder if in 5 more years i will look back at all the things we write in these blogs and laugh about how we stressed about stupid things that won't matter in like a year or less. but oh well.

The End

i don't really have much to say, but i just felt like writing a blog.
its weird cause i really hate writing in school, but i like writing blogs.

The end is near. the end of school that is, even though everyone was joking around about the end of the world with the crazy weather with the lighting, thunder, hail, rain, and crazy clocks at school. hah.
This school year went by super fast. i feel like i did nothing. that feeling really sucks. These two guys came into my ap euro class today because they visited my teacher. They wanted to say hi because they are graduating from yale and georgetown. That's pretty amazing. i want to make an accomplishment like that.

Suprise!

haha well the suprise party was real fun!
i honestly had no idea. people don't believe me when i say that, but i really don't ask my parents about the weird stuff they do anymore. Like when my mom was cooking all this food at my house, she just told me it was for a party for our friend's daughter. I thought that was kinda weird but i didn't say anything because all phillipino parents are weird.

I have this how-to speech to give in my english class on wednesday. mine is on how to give a speech(thank you joy for the idea). i wish i did how to procrastinate. that would have been funny. and then people would i think i was real weird, but that doesn't really matter. it sucks how much people in highschool care about what everyone else thinks about them. my sister told me that if she had to do highschool over, she wouldn't care about what people thought of her because it causes you to become someone you're not by trying to get everyone to like you. i find that the more you are yourself, the more people like you. You're own self is probably totes cool. And who really cares about what highschoolers think. Most of them don't even know what they're talking about. Like the girl who used to sit behind me in my french class and said that being extremely high or drunk doesn't affect your judgment when you're driving or doing anything else...How ignorant do you have to be to say that in public. And thats coming from the girl who wants to go to a UC college but can't even pass French 1. thats kinda sad.
So now i realize that people just shouldn't care.

RED cute

hahahaha
i just wanted to have a title of that. cause its totes hilare how almost nobody gets what that means except us stoop kids or if a stoop kid told you or something.

procrastination really sucks.
i did nothing almost all weekend. i should have been working on something. i know i have to do something. its all just random stuff i won't ever need for real life, but i do it anyways because its my ticket into the real life.

i always feel like i need a ticket into anything. like joy is my ticket into dance stuffs.
thats actually about it.
Well i guess i also need tickets into dances and theme park and concerts, but who doesn't.
nvm about that whole needing a ticket into everything. i'm just going crazy...

cutting music is pretty time consuming. i just finished cutting our medley and it sounds kinda rough, but its my first time using that program.

i almost forgot i was 16. i feel like i haven't done anything in 16 years. how sad...

Who Knew?

Who knew that i could be in a good mood for over half the day?!
Who knew that we could have so much fun playing with make-up in Sephora?
Who knew that i actually wouldn't do dance in school next year?
i didn't even know until this moment

So it is decided that i'm not doing dance in school anymore. I'm taking a walk on the wild side and doing ASB haha. I'm excited to experience something different and new. I hope this is the right choice. i'm about 99.9% sure that doing this will be good for me. The dance program at school is going downhill anyways. I didn't know that people get cut from ASB, so i would feel bad if i didn't take the position cause many people didn't even get in.
It feels like the end of an era. Is this what the dinosaurs felt like when they realized that the meteors/volcano/whatever you believe was about to kill them all off? It sounds like i'm just being dramatic. its not like i'm dying or anything. I feel like a big part of my life is being put to rest and a new part is taking its place. It is just dance at school, and people keep telling me that i will still have iCON, but will i? Sometimes i feel like i won't...or i don't want to have it. Rereading that line makes it sound like i want to quit dance altogether. which i know i don't. its just been so totes ridic i don't even understand it anymore. i just don't know.

But something i do know is that today was one of the funnest days ever. Stoop kids are awesome and i found that i love playing and putting makeup on people even though i don't wear the stuff myself. haha
Also a warning to anyone who goes into the disney store in the promenade, don't ask the sales lady for help or else you will be stuck there listening and following her around that store for like an hour. And it didn't even help that much.

Today i just wrote a blog. MLIA(haha i forgot the one me and Francis came up with earlier today)

Stoop Kids

i think it fits us perfectly. the fab 6 = stoop kids!
i guess from all bad things, something good is a result. For example, the american revolution was bad at first, but now, the united states is one of the strongest countries in the world...okay enough with the history lesson.

but anyways.

k12 was totes stoops. especially the end. i can't believe that you guys still keep talking crap on all of us. If you don't want to hang out with us, you don't have to. you swear like we wouldn't find out. This is the problem with girls. no matter how hard we try, we still act like jerks to one another (even though some of us try harder than others not too). That's on the top of my list: to not give into my girly instincts and be a totes biotch.
Some people should just shut up and take a look at themselves and see who they have become. barely anybody sees that our team is tearing our friendships apart. this is the worst part of it.

On the outside we could look so together. someone on choreo cookies last night told me that we were inspirational for doing whatever we can to dance, like not having a studio and blah blah blah. If only he knew how things go down in the inside...I don't think he would call us inspirational anymore.

Team Meeting!

Things have been going so downhill lately. there are two sides and me not so in the middle, but getting both ends anyways. And me telling everything secretly is NOT going to help! A team meeting is desperately needed even when some don't think its necessary. and if they don't think we need one, then they have no idea what is going on...
And if they don't want to have a team meeting, just tell everyone to read this:

Favoritism: main reason of team division. everyone feels the same way and i'm not going to say names, but to everyone of the team, it should be pretty obvious.

talking behind eachother's back: not everyone can assume that when another person is whispering something, that its something bad about them. maybe they are, but don't retaliate by talking about them to other people. it makes the situation snowball even more, and thats how things have gotten so bad.

opinions/help: there are 24 people on the team who could help if you just asked. we all realize that leading all of us IS hard, but thats why we feel you should be comfortable with asking us for anything.

secrets: especially for me right now, secrets are not fun. i don't want to keep it in anymore and i think the whole team should know whats actually going on.

upholding what our team stands for: our team name isn't something random. When we all got on, we were expected to be role models and actually reinforce our name at all times. We have gotten speeches about this before and i think that being ICONS is another aspect about being on this team.

Time: it has been stressed that being on time is important. we are supposed to not be late, especially during this time because it MIGHT have an effect on where your blocked. i say might because if your not there when we are blocking, you shouldn't be in the dance because its a hassle, but thats not always reinforced.

Unprepared: I'm not the only one who feels like we are always unprepared all the time. And even though you say that we do this all the time, i don't want it to be like this all the time. Like i said before, i know its hard to have everything done because of school and maybe boys. But i don't feel like we are reaching our full potential like if we had just another week to get ready. I think that if we prepared for it more, we would be super clean and be like amazing. at this point, we look good, maybe great, but why settle for that when we could reach higher.

i can't stress enough that WE KNOW THAT ITS HARD TO BE A DIRECTOR, AND WE APPRECIATE IT. But this isn't just how i feel, but how alot of us girls do, i'm just the one who can't keep it in anymore. I've been on this team for over a year, and it makes me so sad to see it go down especially right now and in this way.
I really hope that no one takes this in the wrong way. please don't!
this is not meant to be mean, but to explain the division within our team. i just want everything to be out in the open like how it should be. Because i know none of us want a huge blowout like what happened at pcn last year.